My father has promised me a trip to Paris this summer!
On a happy note
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My father has promised me a trip to Paris this summer!
On a happy note
I kept down only one meal.I dony know what changed…I just idk.
My ED is strong today
Cracking in half.
(Source: elgifdemarvin)
imaloserbabysojustfuckingkillme:
black and white blog
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My therapist is WORTHLESS, to me anyways. She might be good for other people, she’s not for me. Last appt. she ended the fucking session just as I started saying I feel like people don’t want to be around me and all that. She just ended it! and it wasn’t NEAR the time limit. I wanted to fucking drive into oncoming traffic. And every session lately is the same shit. “What’s new?” “nothing.” “Hows work?” “fine” “Any news on school?” “No” and then she might go into the same conversation about how I need to start looking for schools and blah blah, or she’ll sit there nodding her head and repeat the whats new question. Basically most of my sessions are silent as she nods. I know I’m not an easy person to talk to, but fuck isn’t it your job to try to make me feel better? or…at least try to see how I’m FEELING? or if I’m safe? nope. I’m tired of this. All of this.
Yes another rant.
I feel like I’m fucking insane. Lately I feel like it’s building up. Each night is worse. I so want to self harm all over my arms. I want to scream out at people. I want to slam my head or fists into hard objects. I don’t know how much I can take of this.
Every night.
No I don’t want to hear what my use to be friends do and how they all hang out still without me. I know I wouldn’t fit in anymore but still. No I don’t want to fucking drive you home. No I don’t want to take you somewhere. No I don’t aerghaei.giaehgriaerhg I’M A BITCH.
No I don’t want to hear about your boyfriends dick size.
